Sunday, January 31, 2016

Military Science Fiction- JSgt. Jeanne Lankford- Part 1

A while ago I wrote a piece called "Are You Sure?". This follows Jeanne Lankford, the wife in the couple depicted in that piece.
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     As she awoke, she was blinded by the fluorescent light overhead. She quickly blinked the tears from her lavender eyes as she tried to focus. Her stomach twisted. She leaned over the edge of the cryo-tube and gagged as oxy-fluid spilled from her lungs onto the floor.
Fuck, I hate cryo-travel, she thought as she swung her legs over the edge of the tube and straightened. She sucked her teeth as her bare feet hit the frigid metal. The film coating her skin began to peel as she stretched. She shivered and hurried from the cryo-bay and into the adjacent showers.  As the door hissed open, she was hit by a wave of steam; a pleasant change from the bitterly cold cryo-stasis chamber. 
     Her eyes barely open, she shuffled over to one of the spigots and punched the button. A heated jet of a mixture of cleaner and water rained down on her shoulders. She scrubbed her chestnut hair, washing out the stasis-gel. As she let the liquid wash over her body she felt someone move next to her. A girl with shorn mousy hair leaned against the shower wall, her eyes still squeezed shut.
     “Ivanova, are you okay?” she asked.
     “I… hate… cryo-travel,” hacked the girl. 
     “Me too.” She finished washing the residue off her body and headed into the locker room where her platoon had stored their gear before leaving Port Erikson. She pulled on her fatigue pants and slipped the suspenders over he shoulders. She pulled on her undershirt and jacket. She jumped as someone hugged her from behind and kissed her neck. She spun around and was greeted by the smiling face of Sergeant Ruby Marlowe.
     “Good Morning, Lankford! You’ve sleeping in again?” asked Marlowe grinning.
     “You know how cryo effects me, besides, I’d check on Cal, she was looking rough in the showers.” 
     “I’ll get Mom to check on her. You hungry?” asked Marlowe. Jeanne hadn’t thought about it. Her stomach growled.
     “Yeah… What’s on the menu?”
     “The usual, garbage.” joked Marlowe, “Though, it’s probably better than the shit at Fort Slyborn.” Jeanne smiled, she leaned forward to kiss her partner, but they were interrupted by a harsh cough. They stepped apart as Senior Trooper Calinka Ivanova, stumbled into the locker room. 
     “Cal!” cried Marlowe, rushing over to the wheezing girl.
     “I’m fine!” barked Ivanova, “Just give me a moment for fucks sake!” 
     “I want you to get Mom to check up on you. That’s an…” Marlowe was interrupted as another coughing fit over took Ivanova. The message got through though, as the mousy girl nodded between breaths. Jeanne smiled. She loved how Marlowe looked after the squad, kind of like a big sister. She scanned the locker room.
     “Where’s everyone else?” she asked. 
     “Oh, they’re already at the mess. I wanted to make sure you two were awake first.” explained Marlowe, “you can head over, I’ll take care of Cal.”

     “I’ll wait,” said Jeanne. Ivanova eventually coughed up the last of the oxy-fluid in her lungs and pulled on her fatigues. Marlowe gave her an another once over before they all headed for the elevators.

Monday, January 25, 2016

MacLismore Cycle- Part One

   
     The fields surrounding the keep of Gaer’Lismore were usually empty, save for the herds of highland cattle and sheep. But today, a small city of tents and stalls had sprung up as the clans under the Great Clan MacLismore gathered for the Comdhail and the following games. Caelach, a man of short stature and auburn hair wandered through the passages between the assembled pavilions. 
     By his side, a new addition to the clan; Bjorn Thal Velson, a replanted Skaldi from the north lands. Bjorn was much taller than Caelach, standing at least two heads greater. His fair hair  and beard danced in the breeze coming off of Loch Lismore. His chest was broad and his arms thick. 
The pair found their way to the central market, where clansmen peddled their wears and traded goods. Young children dashed in and out of the bustle of their elders, laughing, screaming and shouting. Caelach’s face darkened and he searched for the closest ale cask and filled his horn. He could feel Bjorn’s steel eyes watching him as he drained the horn and replenished it. The Skaldi moved in, brushing Caelach aside as he filled his own horn.
     “You drink very much,” grunted the northman. Caelach wiped a dribble of ale from his chin with his sleeve. He gave the northman a sideways grin. Bjorn had yet to fully grasp the Caerbic language, and it still made Caelach smile.
     “That is a deep praise coming from you.”
     “As I say in the north, you is éngi tvagallmák,” laughed Bjorn.
     “What does that mean?” chuckled Caelach. Bjorn’s face screwed up trying to come up with the Caerbic words.
     “Not weak gut,” he hammered out. Caelach raised his horn.
     “Kalg!” exclaimed the northman. They both pointed their horns to the sky and drained them of ale. Bjorn clapped Caelach on the shoulder.
     “Methinks you have found eyes,” whispered the northman.
     “Huh?” blinked Caelach. Bjorn jerked his blonde head towards a nearby stall. Caelach peered through the throng towards the direction indicated. His eyes fell upon a woman with hair like the feathers of a raven, and eyes of a summer oak. Their eyes met for a moment before her face turned red and she looked back down at the bolts of cloth she was inspecting. He recognized her instantly. She was Flora MacAmbraise-Evinyn. Bjorn looked down at Caelach.
     “She know you?” he questioned.
     “Hmm?” murmered Caelach turning his head, but his eyes were transfixed on Flora.
     “She know you?” repeated the northman.
     “Oh, yes. I’ll be right back,” said Caelach taking a swig before making his way towards the raven maiden.

     Caelach casually slid up next to Flora. Her emerald eyes shot towards him and blush filled her cheeks and she kept inspecting the folds of plaid. 
     “Hello Flora,” he smiled. Her face burned.
     “Hello Caelach…” she muttered. Caelach could feel the grin of the weaver. He looked at the greying woman. She beamed, winked, and stepped out from behind the stall, leaving the pair to themselves. Flora wore a simple blouse and bodice with a blue and purple tartan skirt. 
     “You look very beautiful this day,” said Caelach. Flora twirled a loose jet strand around her finger and bit her lip.
     “Thank you,” she grinned meekly.
     “Are you going to compete in the games?” she asked.
     “Of course!” boasted Caelach. He leaned close. “I plan to fight for your hand in the melee.” She gave him a weak smile and rubbed her neck.
     “Just be careful…” she murmured.
     “I always am!” he proclaimed. She allowed him a small chuckle and turned back to the fabrics.
     “They are so beautiful! Elfyn is so talented,” praised Flora.
     “Thank you lassie.” The greying weaver had returned.
     “What would you like for this one?” asked Flora, holding up a red and purple tartan. 
     “Hmmm, that one would be four boars.” Flora’s face fell.
     “Oh, I don’t think I could afford that…” she lamented. 
     “Here.” Caelach reached into the folds of his kilt and withdrew five golden coins with a relief of a boar etched into once side and handed them to the weaver. Elfyn counted the coins and made to give one back, but Caelach refused.
     “Keep it,” he grinned. The weaver’s face lit up.
     “Much appreciated!” she cried before lifting the bolt of cloth and handing it to Flora.
     “Here you go lass, you better make something beautiful with that!” she winked.
     “Caelach! How could I ever thank you!” she cooed. Caelach grinned, leaned forward and brushed his lips against hers. 

     “Like so,” he said, giving her a wry smile.

Friday, January 1, 2016

What's it like in my mind.

So, here we are. Once again drained of energy and irritable. I have to retreat into a fantasy world where only I exist and have control. A world hidden from the sounds, trivium, and stress of what neuro-typical people call "reality".

I recently (as in about two minutes ago) discovered a series of videos with similar titles along the lines of "What is it like to have Aspergers". I decided that it would be easier for me to explain in words. These videos basically depict what it is like for someone on the spectrum to deal with the sensory input that exists in our world. It's incredibly difficult for me to listen to these videos due to the massive amount of sensory input they give off. It almost makes me physically ill.

As an example of what it's like for me: I am sitting in my room alone with the door shut. It is approximately One in the morning. No one is awake except for me. I am aware of each breath I take. I can hear the humming of the furnace, my brother shifting in his bed in the other room. I am insanely aware of the keystrokes and fan of my computer  and the creak of the processor as I type this. I can hear a cat slinking across the floor towards the water bowl over my head.  I can hear the a car driving by the mail box. The furnace just turned off. I can hear a cat's claw getting stuck in the carpet.

All this is happening, not to mention my own thoughts that I are whirling like a dervish around my brain.

This may seem normal but for some people being able to pick out distinct sounds in the silence of the night. But for me these sounds are so clear and distinct to me that it's hard for me to fall asleep. I have to play music to drown out the ambient noise and my own thoughts.

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Blood Shadow: Chapter One- "Ms. Skinner"

I can still remember the day this whole thing started. It was a pleasant sunny afternoon. I had drawn the blinds and popped open my windows, allowing for a brisk breeze to blow through the office. The cream and olive wallpaper was peeling around the edges, and the door had been misaligned when some lug attached it to the hinges; you couldn’t get it to stay shut unless you pulled up on the brass knob. A pane of frosted glass was set into the oaken exit; bold lettering across the window read, “Shadow Private Investigations”. 

The radio was rebroadcasting the Corsair-Tigers game from a couple of weeks ago. The Tigers were up two runs at the bottom of the 6th. I didn’t care for baseball all that much, it was just something to pass the time. I was more of a fútbol fan myself.

I leaned back in my chestnut chair, and propped my feet up atop the mahogany desk. I had found the thing in a backstreet in Rooktown. I couldn’t believe myself when I found it. It was perfectly good except for the ink stain on the corner, I liked the stain, gave the thing character. I had a black rotary telephone. I hardly ever used the thing I usually waited for someone to call me, someone always did. The lamp was opposite the phone and was joined with the glass ashtray. A glass of whiskey was perched within easy reach.

My thoughts drifted to my partner. Well, former partner, David Wolfe. He was one of the best gumshoes money could buy. He retired, found himself a cute bird named Mary, and decided to settle down. He had bought an automobile service shop up in Sabine; he sure did love his cars. He loved working on the things. He had a strange fascination with anything that had mechanical workings.
When he had decided to retire from detective work, I found a smaller office. Not out of spite or anything, I just couldn’t afford a larger one anymore… See, when you have two private dicks on a case, you can wring a bit more bread out of the client.

Mary was a nice wren. She was a laekanorn, or a mender as most people called them. You know, a healer. She was alright in the looks department. Just to be clear; what I mean is, she wasn’t a model or anything; just an average cluck. 

 Last I talked to him, he and Mary, were trying to have kids; that was almost five months ago. I wondered if they had been successful yet.

Anyways, my skin was pale with a tinge of red, though not for over exposure to the sun; it was always like that. A pair of dark-wine horn-nubs protruded from my forehead, just below my hairline; and my tail hung off the seat and toward the floor, flicking rhythmically. Yeah, I’m a Djollfolk. I know us tieflings can make people uneasy (thanks to our uncanny similarity to the demons and devils of popular mythology), but there is nothing I can do about it.

I pulled a pill from the pack in my breast pocket. I flipped open my lighter, and held the flame to the tip. I puffed on the fag and a wisp of smoke floated upwards, but was soon dispersed by the cross breeze. I heard the creak of the floorboards out in the hall and there was a short rap on the door. 
“It’s open!” I called. I quickly pulled my feet off the desk and hastily smoothed my blouse. The door swung open and a well-dressed floozy walked in.

Now understand, usually I don’t make scissors, but I’m not opposed to kissing fish; this dame though. If I had met her down at the bar after I’d dipped my bill a bit, you can go all in on me chatting up this chick. 

I gave her a once over. She dressed conservatively, not like those roundheels that you can find down in the Pearl District. Her gams would make any jasper swoon, and I felt my thumper quicken. She wore a muted cerulean dress, and a matching jacket. Her tawny curls framed a beautiful and mature face. A hand bag was slung over her shoulder, and a pair black suede gloves were clutched in her finely manicured mitts. She tried to close the door, but it hung open.

“Here, let me get it, please have a seat” I said, getting up from my chair. As I stepped around her, I could smell jasmine and rose. She sat daintily in one of the leather backed chairs positioned in front of my desk. She smoothed her skirts as I made sure the door was closed. 

I saw her eyes dart towards my diploma from St. Vincent’s Academy, which hung  next to a withering cork board which hung over a dark leather davenport. The davenport was another item I found in a back alley. It’s amazing what those rich types throw away. A flat pillow clad in white cotton with a red strip around the opening was tossed haphazardly on the leather cushions, accompanied by a knit blanket. I turned off the radio before returned to my seat.

     “Sorry about that, the damn thing never closes properly. What can I do you for Miss…?” 
     “Skinner, Kathleen Skinner. But my friends call me ‘Kat’.” Her voice was like a babbling brook, bubbly and cheerful. She smiled as she talked, putting that perfect row of ivories on display; they made me think of my more defined canines. She held out her hand.
     “Vera Shadow, Private Eye,” I said, taking her hand. She had a surprisingly strong grip, which took me by surprise. Most twists don’t give you a good shake; their arms are usually like over cooked spaghetti.
     “So, what can I do for you today?” I asked, stamping out my cigarette.
     “I need you to find someone.” My eyebrow raised. Usually when a dish comes in asking for me to find someone it’s because she thinks the lug she’s hitched too has run off with some young bim. The dish’s hunch is generally correct. 

I noticed her eyes dart to my piece, which was tucked into it’s holster that hung from my shoulders. It was an Arnurson .45 Runekaster Double Action Revolver. (In layman’s terms, it’s the style of gun that Felix Steel uses to fight outlaws in the flickers, and double action means, you don’t need to cock the hammer every time you want take a pop at some one. A .45 was more powerful than the .38 that the coppers would carry; couple that with hex-slinging… Hell, I bet it could take down a aurochs; don’t quote me though.)
     “Who’re you looking for Mrs. Skinner?” I asked, leaning forward.
     “Miss, I’m not married,” she corrected. 
     “My apologies.”
     She continued, “A student of mine disappeared a couple days ago. See, I’m a professor down at the Dorwich Institute of Magik. Ms. Morse hasn’t been to class, and no one has seen her around campus.”
     “How do you know she’s not just ran off with some husky?” I asked taking a sip from my pony glass.
     “She isn’t that kind of girl. She would never do such a thing,” she admonished.
     “But how do you know?” I leaned forward, resting my forearms on the rim of my desk, my cigarette balanced between my fingers. 
     “When I was in school, I knew tons of broads who ran off to shack up with their sugar daddies.” Her nose wrinkled at my language and stiffened in her chair. 
     “She’s on scholarship. Her very attendance of the school depends on her making good grades. I’ve seen how she studies. In fact, she’s so focused she cut off her relationship with this young man she met during the summer once school started!” 
     “Now how does a teach know that stuff?” I questioned.
     “I’m her advisor. She often comes to me with more than just school work. She’s loner, in a way. I guess she’s comfortable talking with me; more so than her peers.”
     “Let me guess, you think… What’s her name? Morse, did you say?”
     “Violet Morse.”
     “So, you think Violet has been kidnapped by some punk she broke up with?” I challenged. Her hand jumped to her kisser, as a facade terror washed over her.
     “I surely hope not! But it is one of my suspicions,” she exclaimed.
     “If that’s the case, why didn’t you go to the cops instead of rashing me?” 
     “I did.” She withdrew a cigarette from her purse. I whipped out my lighter and lit the pill.
     “Thank you.” She puffed. “They gave me the same answer you did, and then they told me they’ll put out a reader for people matching her description; but it could take weeks for something to show up. I can’t wait that long! She’s like a daughter to me.” I pulled another smoke out of my pocket and lit it up. 
     “Did you call her folks?” I asked the cigarette bouncing like a busty woman’s tits as she walked.
     “Yes. They live upstate. They said they would give me a ring if Violet showed up.” I finished my hootch and set the glass on the desk.
     “I still don’t see why I should get involved with this.” I commented, “I don’t usually work missing persons. I leave that to the cops.”
     “Please! I’ll make it worth your while,” she pleaded. I thought about that. The last time someone they would, ‘make it worth my while’, I woke up in a hotel, up in Livrem City, with a pair of joy-girls in the bed.
     “Alright. I’ll take the case. But it’s going to cost you thirty krones a day, plus expenses.” I watched her face. I had told her three times the scratch I usually charged for this type of case. The absurdity of her story bumped up the price; also I wanted to see how she would react. Surprisingly, her lips curled into a grin.
     “I can give you a hundred now to get you started, and I’ll pay the rest when she’s found.” She pulled a C-note from her purse, and slid it across the desk. I nipped the bill off the desk and held it up to the light. 
     “Just a moment.” I’d been slipped one to many split bills and it had become a habit.
     “Your folding is in good order; looks like you got a private dick on the case! What’s the girl look like? Do you got a photo?” I questioned.
     “Yes, of course!” She reached into her handbag and passed me a photograph. It showed a young woman in her early twenties, with shoulder length brunette curls.
     “The dormitory is on the edge of campus, on the corner of South Bayville and Kenter Street. It’s not easy to miss, it’s the only gothic building on the street. I’ll tell the guard you’re coming,” said Ms. Skinner.
     “Guard?” I’d never heard of a dormitory having a hard boy watching the door.
     “The academy isn’t co-ed. It’s against the school’s policy to have boys in the dorms. Besides, the city isn’t a safe place for young girls to be left unprotected.”
     “Alright… How can I going to get in touch with you?”
     “Oh yes, of course. I’m the head of the Psychic Department at the Institute, but I’d prefer that if you need to get in touch with me please call my home number: D-274-4166388.” I opened the middle desk drawer and withdrew my notebook and pen. 
     “What was the number again?” She repeated it and I scribbled the digits below her name. I also made sure took note of the location of the dormitory.
     “Thanks, I’ll be sure to toss you a line if I find something,” I said.
     “When.”
     “When?”
     “When you find something,” she said. I couldn’t help but chuckle.
     “Sure thing, Ms. Skinner.” She closed the clasp on her purse and stood. I matched her.
     “Please, call me Kat,” she requested. 
     “If you insist,” I agreed and showed her out. I couldn’t help but watch her pendulum hips as she walked down the hall towards the stairs. 


As I ducked back into the office a dull pain formed in my right knee. I had mussed it during my years of sprinting over uneven cobblestones, through alleys, and jumping fences, et cetera. I hobbled over to the window, and looked out towards the bay. Dark clouds loomed on the horizon, a storm was coming.

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

A Dream

A great man once said, "I have a dream..." I too have a dream.

My dream is not to different from that of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. My dream is that one day, we can cast aside the nonsense that blinds us from seeing the world as it is. A dream that one day we can stop being petty, and self centered. A dream that one day, we can accept everyone as they are.

"And what is everyone?" you may ask. Well, it's actually quite simple. We are Animalia Chordata Mammalia Primates Haplorhini Hominidae Homo Sapien. In simpler terms, human. We are all human beings. When you strip away the nationalities, religion, diagnoses, race, sexual orientation, and gender, we are all the same. Human.

Now, you are probably asking, "Galen, what brought this on? What makes you say this?" To be completely honest? The shallow malarkey that is a game we all play; ever since we reached our teen years. The ever lasting quest for companionship, the game of love, dating.

I may be only in the first year of my second decade, but this does not mean that I am stupid or immature. I learned about death when I was six. I distrusted "God" when I was eight. I finally gave up on the belief in "God" when I was fifteen. I searched for answers that the Catholic Faith couldn't answer. I learned about religion, and history. I strove to find the answers to the questions that possessed my young mind. I found Asatru, but even then, it's not enough. I turned to fantasy and daydream to hide from my ignorance. I steeped myself in made up worlds filled with monsters I could slay because I couldn't slay the demons that haunt me.

I have another quote from a great man.

"Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."

This one is from Steve Jobs, the creator of Apple Inc. This quote is something that I listen to everyday. Because as narcissistic as it sounds, I believe I embody everything this quote says. I see myself as a misfit, a rebel, a troublemaker, a round peg in a square hole. Thus, I am one of the crazy ones. Why? Because I believe that I can change the world. I believe that I can show people that we are all just human.

I had someone tell me, "You can't though [change the world] You'll drive yourself insane. Just be happy with what you can't change."

Bullshit. Absolute bull hockey. Nonsense. Malarkey. Stupidity. Rubbish. Poppycock! What if all the great people that we praise were just happy with what they couldn't change? Where would we be as humanity? I don't know, and I don't want to find out.

A saying I heard as a child, "Can't never could." Why should I think that I can't change the world. If I did, I never could.

So this is my dream.

I dream of a world where I can not be afraid of speaking my mind. A world where I don't have to worry that I'll be judged or laughed at because I'm Aspergers/Autistic. A world were others won't be judged on how they dress, or what sexual orientation they identify as. A world where we stop focusing on what we have, and on who we are. And who are we? Humans.

This is my dream.